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Fractured April and Muddling May - Joelle's misc
June 1st, 2018
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Fractured April and Muddling May
The last two months have really stunk. It all kicked into high gear on April 6. That was the day I was going to start moving files from my old pc Tertius to its successor, Quartus. Instead, Tertius decided to 'retire' a little early. Thus ensued a very expensive battle, in both money and particularly time, to get my files from Tertius, get Quartus up and running, try and fail to repair Tertius, spend far too much of my life messing with BIOS menus, have to purchase parts and software multiple times, buy an OS, buy a new hard drive, buy cords to read from a broken hard drive, read all sort of advice on the internet, get a replacement for Tertius, cannibalize parts from Tertius, be forced to switch emails and start updating way too many accounts, lose easy access to all my old emails, and pretty much make no progress with anything truly meaningful.

Life was rotten. No creative progress, no art project in motion, no big enough blocks of free time to do book 4 revisions, and definitely no writing progress. My soul already felt like it had shriveled into dead dust by how awful 2017 was (leaving aside the wounds of 2007 onward), and then this fun came along. Nor was that the sum of it. No car, no way to get out to parks, but little reason to attempt it either, because my lovely state decided to skip spring. April went from a super cold month with a monster blizzard in the middle, to May, which started hot and then ended with a unprecedented 6 days in a row of 90+ temps (and one day likely hit 100) and became the second-warmest May on record. Or as the meteorologist put it, we had two Marches and two Junes this year.

At least I had a blessed reprieve in the form of visiting family in California, though it was not the sort of trip to bestow mountains or long hikes. I'm grateful I was able to not spend all that time thinking about the computer war and do special outings with nieces and nephews.

Needless to say, accomplishments were abysmal, unless staying quasi-sane counts as such.

Pass 1 Highlight/comment potential edits & revisions COMPLETE!
Pass 2 Major edits and revisions In Progress, 33% complete
Pass 3 Items missed in Pass 2, edit revisions not yet started
Pass 4 Highlight/address bad habits and trouble spots not yet started
Pass 5 Verbal read-through not yet started
Pass 6 Thorough review with different font and page layout not yet started
Pass 7 Final sweeps not yet started

So now comes the real June and horrible summer in full, and how I feel is that I'm effectually dead, even if I do technically still have a pulse, collect a paycheck, and pay taxes.

And at least, though I'm now probably approaching $800 over budget with all that's gone wrong, I do finally have Quartus and all its needed software purchased and installed, and Sidekick (the replacement for Tertius) is set up well enough that Quartus is siloed from the internet. If I can scrounge up any time or inner strength, I could go full-bore into art projects again, with only the non-existent Vue website and store to keep me from being able to pursue any project I want.

My big project that I started on in March and hoped to unveil in June has to be rebuilt from the ground up, but at least the delay gave me a little space for some extra training during recent lunch breaks. And I was blessed that I could sequester 7+ hours on Memorial Day just to do book 4 revisions, so at least that ball has the potential to keep rolling.

I'm glad to have things to anticipate. A special event getaway in early June, and just maybe my big 25th anniversary celebration gift will be finished in June as well. Oh yes, and turning 43.

Hopefully that's enough to keep the depression I'm flirting with from getting any stronger, and hopefully life can begin to move in the direction of being something more like life again. I'm very grateful for Starfish (my netbook) in this whole mess, and intensely grateful for my portable air conditioner. Trying to brace for a horrifically warm summer in which I won't want to go many places even if I did have a car.


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